It is important to realize how selfish you are when you want things your own way before God’s way. You must repent and sincerely desire to please Him first.
Read: Proverbs 8:9-11
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My words are plain to anyone with understanding,
clear to those with knowledge.
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Choose my instruction rather than silver,
and knowledge rather than pure gold.
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For wisdom is far more valuable than rubies.
Nothing you desire can compare with it.